"i almost wish it was over..."
"What is over?"
"Rain. Cold. Winter. Spring, next summer. The next two years... All of it..."
"Why?"
"I want know what's going to happen next. Part of my mind is already elsewhere... "
"You're running ahead of yourself."
"Like I always do."
"You realize that it's pointless to know what's going to happen next, right?"
"I could at least try and guess..."


"What is it that's really bothering you?"
"Uncertainties. I dont deal with them well"
"Who does?"
"Doesn't make it any easier"
"Well then , eliminate them to the very minimum. You have your certainties..."
"And they are..."
"You know how it' s going to sound when you knock on the wood. You know it will burn if you try and touch the fire. You know it will hurt and bleed if you run your finger over the blade. That's all you need to know. Your certainties."
"What about the human factor? Emotions that come along when you deal with it?"
"Reduce it to the very minimum."
"And you consider it a sound advice?"
"What else should i say? Go hang yourself over anyone that comes your way?"
"So you expect me to walk out of any situation unaffected?"
"You can't. What you can do is set your own certainties. You tell yourself that it will hurt and burn if you decide to let someone in. Consider it as almost a mathematical certainty other than a possibility that gets lost by wishful thinking. That's all you need. You can't change what you cant control, but you can set your own certainties..."

Have i been here before?
Was it really me?
Was it you that i saw?
Did i imagine?
Am i dreaming now?
Is it you standing next to me? Was it real? Is it real now?
Is it? Ever?